James' last birthday in 2008, at the Dads and Lads Camp with Camp Quality!!
Well, I can't believe my beautiful Angel Boy will be 14 tomorrow.
Happy birthday sweet heart, we hope you have a great day and you can blow out all those candles.
We will sing you happy birthday here and hopefully you will hear us!
It is amazing, I was looking for the last photo of James' Birthday in 2008 and have just realised that I was not there on the day. It has come as a shock to me, that I wasn't there for his last birthday here with us. It is amazing how you forget so many things. It was the first time that I wasn't there and it is now continuing. I am not there, to give him a birthday kiss, hug and showering him with presents, love and good wishes for a happy day. Congratulate him on how old he is getting and that we are so very proud of all that he has done. Last year I seemed to go through the day in a daze, as it was so close to when we said goodbye. This year I am torn apart that he is not here, not knowing what to do, where to go, how to celebrate a birthday that will never be.
My heart is aching for our dear James, wishing he was here. Also for the Holmes Family that will also struggle with a special birthday on Monday week. Little Imogen with turn 6 on the 26 April. Whether Imogen keeps going till then or she goes to sleep forever, it will be a hard day for her family as well. Anniversaries, Christmas, Easter, Birthdays, all special times when families are supposed to be together, are always the hardest times. Every day is a struggle without our Angel Babies with us, but on special days it is just so much harder.
Please sing Happy Birthday to James tomorrow, think of all the cool teenager things he would be up to. Think of the Holmes family who are preparing themselves for the worst heartache any parent can think of.
Have a great day James, catch the wishes we are sending you!!
xoxox
