10.10.10

Well, what a date yesterday.

20 months since James left us.

Liam and James are 20 months apart.

Liam is now older than his big brother James.

So weird.

It is just so surreal.

Not really knowing how to put it into words.

Liam is coming to terms with it as well.

He said to me yesterday, how do I say that James is my older brother,

when he is not older any more?

Days pass, time ticks by, but our love just seems to grow deeper.

Whether you are near or far away, you are always in my heart and mind.

xoxox

A Surprise Visit!

We were very lucky this week with a surprise visit from James, yes you read right, our James. My mum found an old camera with a film still inside. She was unable to start it and after many phone calls to find someone that could develop an old film and get it out of the camera, Mum found one in Forrestfield. They were very helpful and got the film out and sent it away to be developed. We were all holding our breath and hoping that there would be photos of James, but none of us actually said it out loud. When mum texted me, she said the photos were beautiful and that she would come around with them. I was too excited and scared to ask if there where any of James.

When mum arrived I knew that there must be some of James, just the look she gave me. They are beautiful. I have scanned them on me negative reader, but will take the negatives to a shop and have them put on cd as they can do such a better job than mine. I have included them with the blog. I feel so blessed to have this small piece of James, it is so hard to describe. I think the best way is that 'he has visited us'!

Missing you heaps my beautiful boy!!

We all love you so much.

xoxox